Archive | May, 2013

Cita del Día…

31 May

“We can reach our world, if we will. The greatest lack today is not people or funds. The greatest need is prayer.” -Wesley Duewel

Monday and Tuesday (June 3-4) my team will be fasting and praying for our trip. Please join us in faith that God will do amazing things in the lives of the beautiful Shuar people…

To find out more: http://seuecuador.wordpress.com/2013/05/29/two-day-fast-for-ecuador/”>http://seuecuador.wordpress.com/2013/05/29/two-day-fast-for-ecuador/

Actualización Rápida…

28 May

Sitting…..waiting…..wondering…..how much were these shots going to hurt?

Heart rate was racing, mind was going, tears were waiting to pour. Nothing about the cold, empty doctor’s room could supply comfort. Until I began to remember why I was there. Why I needed to be experiencing a minute’s worth of pain.

I began to marvel at pictures of Ecuador and the Shuar people. The cold, lofty room suddenly filled with smiles. Laughter leaked out between cracks. Love embraced the atmosphere. Like gravity, the hope of seeing her face kept me grounded.

A minute’s worth of pain cannot compare to the years of heartache I have felt without cradling her smile, in person.

I still cried rivers before the needle even touched my arm, but it was so worth it.

Ecuador, you are so worth it…

It all started with grace…

24 May

He never ceases to amaze me.

These past few weeks have been brutal trying to get everything ready for Ecuador. 

  • Immunizations = $300+
  • Hiking pack = $100+
  • Everything else = $Bankrupt

I quickly realized that dreams are not cheap.

As the bill for Ecuador began to rise, my confidence deflated. If God really wanted me to go then all of this preparation would have been easy, right? I questioned if I truly even loved Ecuador anymore…

Of course I do!

However, this love will take faith and boldness, so as any woman of God would do I… begged for donations on social media. When begging was ineffective I hosted a private pity party in my room. Lastly, when all else failed I complained to God ( I do not recommend this last bit, it was quite an emotional time for me). 

In hindsight, it was never my lack of adoration for Ecuador that hindered me from receiving a financial blessing. My “wallet-worries” were not caused by God changing His mind either.

My failure to believe that God actually wanted to bless me was the source of my issue.

I professed with my mouth that He would provide, but my heart was contradicting. I had not prayed in days, my attitude had been gross, and I could not remember that last time I read His Word. Why would God want to bless me?

Just as quick as I questioned His faithfulness, He answered me. Yesterday I went to a bible study group and the topic so happened to be on blessings. The bottom-line is I can never earn anything God has given me: love, salvation, grace, blessings…they are all gifts. The banner of the message was this,

I do not deserve God’s blessings because I am not worthy, but I will choose to receive them because I am His heir.

He saw my need, but He was waiting to respond to my faith.

That night my mouth and my heart professed that He would provide.

The next day:

  1. I discovered a place where I could get my immunizations for free
  2. Purchased a hiking pack for $30
  3. I was blessed financially from my parents
  4. Purchased a majority of my items from Walmart (I went to the same Walmart two days ago and did not notice any of these things)

He responds to faith… believe it and receive it, not because you deserve it, but because you are His child and He wants to bless you. Note: this is not suppose to come off as the “prosperity Gospel.” Accepting Jesus does not always mean an overflow of blessings or rainbows everyday. He does promise to remain faithful, even when you are not.

“If we are not faithful, he will be faithful. Christ cannot deny who he is” -2 Timothy 2:13

Three years ago this promise of holding beauty in my hands was born. It is amazing to witness God shaping a dream into reality.

  • Immunizations =$Grace
  • Hiking pack =$Grace
  • Everything else =$Grace
  • A dream becoming real… signed, sealed, and delivered via $Grace…
  • -Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles