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It all started with a hike (part 1)…

21 Jun

June 16th, 2013

“Todo lo puedo en Cristo que me fortalece.” -Filipenses 4:13

Today I hiked up a monstrous mountain-3,000 feet high! It was only through Christ whom gives me strength that I made it up.

The day began by walking across the bridge that leads to the Shuar villages. Ecuador Bridge

We met with the pastor there-Pastor Gonzales. After we met with the pastor we visited the first church. A part of our visit there required singing “Open the Eyes of My Heart” in front of the entire church. Honestly, it was both nerve-wrecking and awkward, but once I got out of my skin I loved it!

Before sending the children off, “Fierce Mohawk” told his testimony and Pastor Gonzales gave a quick word of encouragement to everyone. The team was then asked to split off into groups–some with the children and some to stay in the church. I wanted to be with the children so bad, but I was too nervous. I decided to just kept my hand down. Pastor Matt (one of the missionaries) asked once more who wanted to go. Thankfully, “Gringo Bama” saw my inner conflict and encouraged me to go with the children. I am incredibly happy that I went. I was afraid that I was not going to be able to connect, but I actually interacted really well with them. Having “Quiet Storm” along my side helped tremendously because she was able to translate for me. I loved every second with the children! I cannot believe my insecurity almost kept me away from being with them.

Coming to this small village allowed me to see I am much more capable than I allow myself to think. I was so afraid of being with the beautiful children because my fear of failing. But God works mightily in our weaknesses. He gave me confidence to interact and love on those beautiful boys and girls. I am so thankful that I got that push; I am so thankful that He believed in me.

Never let fear come between what you love. 

-Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles

Actualización Rápida…

6 Jun

Last night God gave me a dream…
It was one of the most beautiful dreams my mind has ever captured.

“My team had just arrived in Ecuador and I was getting situated in my hut. I began to pray that I would have a connection with the people. The second I opened the door to leave, the most beautiful baby Shuar boy leaped into my arms. We embraced for what seemed like forever! Love, like glue, just held us together.”

I woke up to tears leaving trails of joy down mountains for cheeks and love radiating deep in my chest. I love that little boy without even knowing him.
I wonder if I will see him there…

Will a little soul entangle with mine?
Will tiny arms encircle my waist?

I am not sure, but this dream gives me hope that I will connect.
This dream could not have been in more perfect timing.

It was in His perfect timing.

-Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles

It all started with doubts…

2 Jan

I have to be honest with you all.

The reason I have been really late with posts was because of finals and sending letters, but also with doubts.

The truth is I have been in this weird fog lately. I am just…. not me.

In the midst of my pity party I decided to finally let out every emotion I was feeling to my good friends that I consider family. I received an amazing amount of encouragement to keep going within my walk with Christ. My journey of reconstructing my whole foundation begins now, and it begins with a song lyric that has gripped my spirit.

 

“la victoria yo tengo en ti”

-Fuego de Dios by Hillsong United

When my vocal chords wrapped around these words, tongue forming the speech of Ecuador’s soil, my soul snapped back into reality. I know Ecuador is handwritten by God on my heart. I know I will get out of this fog. And I know I have victory in THE GREAT I AM.

With all of that being said, I will continue to post. Regularly.

 –Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles

 

PS. If anyone has ever been in a fog like I have, tell someone. What allowed me to finally open up myself was remembering the words God spoke to me one day. He said, “I send you people who love you, accept their love, I send these people so that you don’t have to be alone with your thoughts…” I realize not all of you may have the same beliefs as myself, but these words are still so true. If you’re like me, your biggest enemy is your thoughts. So please, make yourself cellophane to those who love you. Swallow the big pill of fear and anxious thoughts and… speak.