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12 Jun

God has one sense of humor!

In the midst of my panic sessions concerning finances for Ecuador I said, “Watch I bet God is going to provide at 11:59 the day before the money is due.”


I just turned in the last bit of money due, I glanced at the time and it was 11:59…

Jesus, I love you!

-Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles


It all started with love…

7 Jun

It is easy to get caught up in the hype of missions.

  • How many people will get healed?
  • Will numerous souls be saved?
  • Who’s life am I going to change?

Questions like these want to be answered, but it honestly do not matter.

The root of it all is simply love. The incurable disease of unstoppable, unyielding, unconditional love.

To be painfully honest, I often feel intimidated by my fellow team members’ passion. Being free to express themselves seems to come  naturally for them. That is not the case for me. I start to doubt if I will  make an impact. Will the Shuar even notice how much I adore them?

Instead of investigating the roots, I examined the color of the flower…
Instead of seeing the root of love, I grumbled that my expression of  it did not look like theirs. 

Oh, how dull a meadow would be if every flower was the same.

In the midst of sizing up my capabilities, I had to remember that the greatest thing I can ever offer is love. I can have the wisdom of Solomon or the faith of Abraham, but without love I am nothing.

“If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.” -1 Corinthians 13:1-3

For the next few days and for the duration of the trip this is what I need to constantly remember:

  1. My words will wither and my good works will fade away, but love is always here to stay.
  2. I love Ecuador! And love is not all I can do, it is everything I can do!
  3. Love is all I need. He will give me the words to speak. He will grant me the boldness I need. He moves in love.
  4. Love is the reason. Love is the mission.

Love is why I am going to Ecuador…

-Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles

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6 Jun

Last night God gave me a dream…
It was one of the most beautiful dreams my mind has ever captured.

“My team had just arrived in Ecuador and I was getting situated in my hut. I began to pray that I would have a connection with the people. The second I opened the door to leave, the most beautiful baby Shuar boy leaped into my arms. We embraced for what seemed like forever! Love, like glue, just held us together.”

I woke up to tears leaving trails of joy down mountains for cheeks and love radiating deep in my chest. I love that little boy without even knowing him.
I wonder if I will see him there…

Will a little soul entangle with mine?
Will tiny arms encircle my waist?

I am not sure, but this dream gives me hope that I will connect.
This dream could not have been in more perfect timing.

It was in His perfect timing.

-Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles


Sólo un vistazo…

5 Jun

Sólo un vistazo…

Nine more days!!!

Currently, I am experiencing every emotion under the sun. For the first time I have no words. Words are inadequate.

What to say when you see your very dream unfolding in front of your eyes?

What does a mother say when she first holds her young? Absolutely nothing. She takes in every once of beauty her eyes allow her to behold. Heart beat speaks with eloquence and arms finish sentences.

When it comes to love, sometimes words are cheap.

What I can seem to utter is that… I hope I can connect. All I ask is that her gaze will cut straight through me- into parts I have only allowed God and her to witness. I want her to be pleased with what I have to offer. I do not have strength. I do not have wisdom. What I do have is this immense love. For I do not come with an agenda to teach, I come with the objective to love.

I may not be able to converse with native tongue, but unyielding love is a language that can never be misunderstood…

Cita del Día…

31 May

“We can reach our world, if we will. The greatest lack today is not people or funds. The greatest need is prayer.” -Wesley Duewel

Monday and Tuesday (June 3-4) my team will be fasting and praying for our trip. Please join us in faith that God will do amazing things in the lives of the beautiful Shuar people…

To find out more: http://seuecuador.wordpress.com/2013/05/29/two-day-fast-for-ecuador/”>http://seuecuador.wordpress.com/2013/05/29/two-day-fast-for-ecuador/

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28 May

Sitting…..waiting…..wondering…..how much were these shots going to hurt?

Heart rate was racing, mind was going, tears were waiting to pour. Nothing about the cold, empty doctor’s room could supply comfort. Until I began to remember why I was there. Why I needed to be experiencing a minute’s worth of pain.

I began to marvel at pictures of Ecuador and the Shuar people. The cold, lofty room suddenly filled with smiles. Laughter leaked out between cracks. Love embraced the atmosphere. Like gravity, the hope of seeing her face kept me grounded.

A minute’s worth of pain cannot compare to the years of heartache I have felt without cradling her smile, in person.

I still cried rivers before the needle even touched my arm, but it was so worth it.

Ecuador, you are so worth it…

It all started with grace…

24 May

He never ceases to amaze me.

These past few weeks have been brutal trying to get everything ready for Ecuador. 

  • Immunizations = $300+
  • Hiking pack = $100+
  • Everything else = $Bankrupt

I quickly realized that dreams are not cheap.

As the bill for Ecuador began to rise, my confidence deflated. If God really wanted me to go then all of this preparation would have been easy, right? I questioned if I truly even loved Ecuador anymore…

Of course I do!

However, this love will take faith and boldness, so as any woman of God would do I… begged for donations on social media. When begging was ineffective I hosted a private pity party in my room. Lastly, when all else failed I complained to God ( I do not recommend this last bit, it was quite an emotional time for me). 

In hindsight, it was never my lack of adoration for Ecuador that hindered me from receiving a financial blessing. My “wallet-worries” were not caused by God changing His mind either.

My failure to believe that God actually wanted to bless me was the source of my issue.

I professed with my mouth that He would provide, but my heart was contradicting. I had not prayed in days, my attitude had been gross, and I could not remember that last time I read His Word. Why would God want to bless me?

Just as quick as I questioned His faithfulness, He answered me. Yesterday I went to a bible study group and the topic so happened to be on blessings. The bottom-line is I can never earn anything God has given me: love, salvation, grace, blessings…they are all gifts. The banner of the message was this,

I do not deserve God’s blessings because I am not worthy, but I will choose to receive them because I am His heir.

He saw my need, but He was waiting to respond to my faith.

That night my mouth and my heart professed that He would provide.

The next day:

  1. I discovered a place where I could get my immunizations for free
  2. Purchased a hiking pack for $30
  3. I was blessed financially from my parents
  4. Purchased a majority of my items from Walmart (I went to the same Walmart two days ago and did not notice any of these things)

He responds to faith… believe it and receive it, not because you deserve it, but because you are His child and He wants to bless you. Note: this is not suppose to come off as the “prosperity Gospel.” Accepting Jesus does not always mean an overflow of blessings or rainbows everyday. He does promise to remain faithful, even when you are not.

“If we are not faithful, he will be faithful. Christ cannot deny who he is” -2 Timothy 2:13

Three years ago this promise of holding beauty in my hands was born. It is amazing to witness God shaping a dream into reality.

  • Immunizations =$Grace
  • Hiking pack =$Grace
  • Everything else =$Grace
  • A dream becoming real… signed, sealed, and delivered via $Grace…
  • -Dios respira vida en sueños aparentemente imposibles